Deferral: Continued

Thank you everyone for all of your comforting words. I really am glad for everyone’s support. I know that my last post came off as very…depressed.

The truth of the matter is that I’m hardly in a bad mood at all.

After hearing about the mail fiasco yesterday, I realized that it was highly likely that I had been deferred. For a couple of hours, I sat around, accomplishing very little, trying to come to terms with that.

By this morning, when I actually found out, it wasn’t a surprise, and most of the pain had gone away. And while I haven’t been unusually talkative, I’ve pretty much accepted it as something that’s happened, and that’s more or less out of my control.

At this very moment, I remain completely satisfied in the application I sent in November 2nd. And no matter how I choose to revise things before the regular review, I’m not sure I would have done anything differently for the first attempt.

What matters now is crossing bridges when I come to them. That is, my focus right now is finishing the Stanford essays that are due tonight at 12:00, Pacific Standard Time.